the teachers only wanted one captain each for the guys and girls team. i was nominated but didn't get the position in the end. expected really, but can't help feeling a little disappointed. i thought i might be able to be vice-capt but there's no position of vice-capt this year. i wanted to join dance before, as my friends well know, but stayed on because there's a good chance of having a position and because the season ends early. now, i dunno what to do. there's no place in the team for me. i feel like i'm not getting anywhere with my skills; i'm not getting anything from the sport, even enjoyment is scarcely there most times.

 

i'm wondering if i sld finish this year and join dance, if it's not too late. at least i get the chance to learn something i've always wanted to learn. there's syf next year and they would have alot of practices to train for the syf compt in july. i'm not sure if i'll be able to handle it and my school work. i'll probably ask about their practices and consider again. or mabbe i sld just forget abou it; they probably won't accept new members now. why didn't i insist on joining dance in the first place?